Heart Ache
My heart aches right now. Music’s playing Realize by Colbie Caillat and my heart races so fast that I don’t even know what to do. Maybe we’re not just meant for each other. This feeling that I have for that person just don’t fit. Love and Hate really can’t co-exist with each other. Maybe it’s time to say goodbye. I can feel this chills that I’ve never felt before. Listening to this song and confiding with this feeling that I have makes me feel that I don’t deserve to have everything.
I don’t know why I like to play this song so much. Just this morning we’re friends, then this afternoon we’re bitter enemies. It’s never really gonna be that simple. The pain is like killing me from the inside. I feel like I don’t want to see that person again, but then again, my heart yearns to look back.
I don’t have any face to show. How I wish I could punch the wall till my hands bleed and numb. Maybe I was trying to meddle with that persons life too much to the point that I’m already hurting that person.
And now I’ve REALIZED something. I should now STOP. Try to get back the life that I’ve had before.
Won’t try to be sad, but will take a lot time I think before I smile.
I DONT KNOW! I feel like SHUTTING all the DOORS!, Never talk, never say anything.
I felt so strong but just a word of anger from that person made me feel so weak and afraid.
Just want to thank that person for making me experience something that I’ve never felt before. I think I won’t talk to you a lot these next days or prehaps months. It’s sad, but its all my fault. So I’ll try to minimize and undo evrything back to normal.